So....I couldn't tell you the last time I wrote. I know, its been a LONG time and I've thought to myself 1000 times that I should sit down, put my current thoughts and memories on digital paper and be able to remember these sweet moments that have engulfed my life since becoming a Mommy of Two. So many things have changed in my life since November 25. We went from being a family of three, to a family of four. I've battled the stress of taking care of two children, our first "layoff" as a family, amongst a lot of other trials. Needless to say, we've flourished because of them. When I had Kasen, I knew I wanted to start making some changes in our lives for the better...January came around and I knew that for 2015, I wanted to "live better". I don't usually make resolutions because I feel like I don't live up to them as clearly as I hope to, but making a commitment to "live better" was just the start I needed to jump start my journey to becoming the Wife, the Mom, the Sister, the Daughter, the Friend, the Nurse and the Me, I wanted to be. Some of the things I wanted to accomplish this year were to make new friends, and take opportunities to spend qualify time with other Mom, wives, and women that would build me up and hold me accountable to be better. I decided I wanted to slowly transition into a healthier lifestyle. I wanted to envelop myself into my life and not live it through the camera on my phone, or the camera in my giant camera bag. Yes, I want to capture memories, but I also want to be so engrossed in the happenings of our lives that I can remember exactly what it feels like to watch Jaxon stand on the river bank and throw rocks in the water, or how it feels to hold sweet Kasen while he smiles a sleepy smile before falling asleep. I don't want to share all of these memories with social media, or even my friends and family. I want to hold onto some of these sweet precious fleeting moments for myself. I feel like the changes I've made over the last few months have helped me become the beginning of a better me. I've learned to accept that my house isn't going to be spotless as long as I have three boys in this house. I've learned to accept that I may not always have it together, but at least I have life, and reality, and honest brazen emotions and feelings and everyday moments.
Until next time,
Peace, Love and Organic Memories
