First Verse-
I know I need You
I need to love You
I love to see You, but it's been so long
I long to feel You
I feel this need for You
And I need to hear You, is that so wrong?
"My love is over. It's underneath.
It's inside. It's in between.
The times you doubt Me, when you can't feel.
The times that you question, 'Is this for real? '
The times you're broken.
The times that you mend.
The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.
Well, My love is over, it's underneath.
It's inside, it's in between.
These times you're healing, and when your heart breaks.
The times that you feel like you're falling from grace.
The times you're hurting.
The times that you heal.
The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal.
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain.
I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame.
I'm there through your heartache.
I'm there in the storm.
My love I will keep you, by My pow'r alone.
I don't care where you fall, where you have been.
I'll never forsake you, My love never ends.
It never ends."
Anyways, the song is about a conversation between a man and God... a father and a son... and all I could think was "Wow! I'm going to love my child this same way!" I was completely overcome with emotion. To think that I am going to get to love this sweet little boy through all the good and bad times of his life. No my love will never amount to the love of his heavenly father, because I am human, but with any help he will feel my love through anything life throws him. I cannot wait to hold this sweet boy in my arms, and see his sweet face. I'm hoping he looks just like his daddy, because lets face it... I love his daddy more than words can describe! To know that we are being blessed with such a miracle blows my mind...I feel like everyday that gets closer to our due date I fall in love with Jay even more. I know he's going to make a fantastic father, I couldn't be more proud to have him raise our children. God has blessed my life with both of these boys more than I can even say... his plan for my life has already proven to be 100x greater than the plans I had made for myself.
Now that I've shared all the ooey gooey mess that I've been feeling... I guess I should update on the pregnancy itself... things are going really well... I'm 35 weeks and 5 days! Getting to the end of this long road! My due date is 30 days away and I cannot wait! We almost have the nursery ready, just missing a 6 drawer organized and the mini blinds, and of course the decorations ( I'm waiting til after the shower to go out and finish the walls) but its absolutely adorable! I cannot wait to post pictures.
A few other family updates....
Jay is definitely kicking tail at work! He's been growing his customer list and reaching out to new customers left and right! I'm definitely proud of him ( But i'm also really ready for his leave to spend sometime with us!)
Ranger just got fixed this week, and hasn't seemed to calm down at all! He's still a handful but he's a blast... he's starting to learn a little bit faster! We still absolutely adore him..and nothing melts my heart like having him come lay his little head on my belly (even if it only lasts for a split second).
Other than that we're just staying busy :) We'll keep updating as time gets closer to our little man's grand debut!
Until Next time
Peace, love and lyrics
